I am in the hospital right now. I am going through most of everything mentioned here and more. I have known something is not right for several years. I am out of doctor options, money, strength, and worst of all, hope. I am being treated for diverticulitis, just diagnosed. As I was being released from the hospital, I was told plans changed. I am not going home. They say I have Sepsis. I am sure I had it when my appendix ruptured and I got gangrene in my stomach, intestines, and bowel. And, when my Gall bladder was removed. And when a metal stake impaled into my leg. And all the other times I was hospitalized. Now, all I know for sure is I am very weak, very tired, can no longer take the pain, I just feel done. I am wondering, am I just going to die after all the painful medical conditions and experiences I have endured? The lonliest feeling EVER! I pray for all of you. God bless you all.